ue banLightning strikes
Inside my chest to keep me up at night
Dream of ways
To make you understand my pain
Clouds of sulfur in the air
Bombs are falling everywhere
It's heartbreak warfare
Once you want it to begin,
No one really every wins
In heartbreak warfare
If you want more love,
why don't you say so?
If you want more love,
why don't you say so?
Drop his name
Push it in and twist the knife again
Watch my face
As I pretend to feel no pain
Clouds of sulfur in the air
Bombs are falling everywhere
It's heartbreak warfare
Once you want it to begin,
No one really ever wins
In heartbreak warfare.
If you want more love,
why don't you say so?
If you want more love,
why don't you say so?
Just say so...
How come the only way to know how high you get me
is to see how far I fall
God only knows how much I'd love you if you let me
but I can't break through it all.
It's a heartbreak...
I don't care if we don't sleep at all tonight
Let's just fix this whole thing now
I swear to God we're gonna get it right
If you lay your weapon down
Red wine and ambient
You're talking shit again, it's heartbreak warfare
Good to know it's all a game
Disappointment has a name, it's heartbreak warfare. <!-- end of lyrics -->
Yak, itulah lirik lagu dari Heartbreak Warfare-nya John Mayer, yg gue suka bangettt. Ga tau ya, album Battle Studies kok gue bangettt, yg ngingetin all about my saint, awwww....
Hari ini Alhamdulillah banget, bnyk hal yg bikin gue hepi berattt... Pertama, gue n mom udah baikan sm mbak, sejak insiden 2 hari lalu yg cukup bikin gue syok n ga konsen les.. Mudah2an itu yg terakhir kalinya kt berantem mulut dan mbak bs sadar ya Alloh,,, :')
Trus yang kedua, mbak Patty is home... Rumah jadi rame, n td dinner bakso ala mamski gtu deeee, asik muancapp :)
What else? Hmm.... Oia, gue kan udh hmpir 3 mnggu ini Les tofel gtu di kampus, actually awalnya sih gue lil bit doubtful sm PB Unhas, cuz I thought d tutors are uneligible, tp gue ngeyakinin diri lah, dosen kan lebih berpengalaman dlm ngasih kuliah.. ya ga sih? akhirnya gue sekelas sm si misharce n akbar,... Dan gue berharap bs sekelas sm sumbody who could steal my heart, tp syg oh syg, smua pd merit n bapak2 smuaaaaaa, hahahahaha... -___-"
Wkt placement test, hasil tofel gue 470, eh pas practise pertama alhamdulillah naik ke 520, tp sungguh malang nan memprihatinkan, practice ke 2, malah anjlok ke 460!! Gila ga bokk! Ahh, emang ya, kl tes toefl itu depends on our condition, entah itu kesehatan apa mental, gue emg lagi ga konsen abis tuh gara2 sumthinggg, zzzzzzzzzzzzz
Jumat ini adalah hari terakhir gue kursus, gue malah excited bgt, seneng, bs dpt ilmu baru, n kagum sm dosen pengajarnya. Metode nya bgs, ga ngebosenin n easy to learn.. Senen utk Final Test-nya, ya Alloh, mohon ridho-Mu utk bs meraih at least 550 utk bs dpt beasiswa ke Luar Negeri, amiiin ya Robbal alamiiiin.. :')
Well, we move to another topic ya bokk, Sabtu lalu itu adlh Inaugurasi-nya ILSA utk dirayain 5 taunnya revive.. Ah, gue dtg sm dewi n kebetulan gue diminta jd welcome speech.. Gilak, gue sm dia skr kl ketemu kayak gmn ya, kyk ga pnh ada apa2 gtu, hiksss, tp gue tau, itu krn sikap gue yg 'terlihat dingin' yg otomatis bikin doi ogah ngedeketin gue.. Alhasil, makan tuh gengsi! -__-"
But I appreciate bgt pas dia ngajak ngobrol gtu, yah I know sekedar basa-basi bgt, tp TO BE HONESTM GUE SENENG BANGET LIAT SENYUMNYA, KETAWANYA, SUARANYA DAN MATANYA.... smua hal yg bikin gue syg dr dia. Ah gosh, I miss him so bad :'(
Dan akhirnya pas di gazebo, gue pamitan sm doi n others, gue blg mau ke kantin, eh doi ngikut, dan yg gue sesalkan adalah, Doi ngira gue sendiri, n try to talk sumthing, pas dia ngeliat dewi lg duduk di bangku, dia spontan "eh, ada dewi,," dan gue diem aja, maless... Dia bntar aja di kntin beli minum smbil certa dikit menang doorprize mesin cuci undian dr Sriwijaya dan gue ditawarin utk beli.. Hellloooooo, ga ada pembicaraan lainnya ya? huhuhuhu
YA Alloh, knp sih vika gini bgt? Smua hal, setiap harinya selalu ngingetin ttg dia. Lagu, tempat mkn, kebiasaannya kt b2, ah, syg bgt ya, kok cpt bgt berlalu...
Mungkin itu dia ya kelemahannya hts, mulainya ga jelas, berkahirnya jg lebih2 ga jelas.... Hello, but ain't good bye...
No twitter, tp bgsnya, gue lebih bebas ngetwit curhat, bahkan sm anak2 ilsa lainnya, gue ga berteman, malessss, twit jd ga bebas kan ya? Oia gue mggu lalu iseng nyari twitter si mantan calon adek ipar, fyii,, sama aja kayak abangnya, hobi bgt abroad, heuhuuuu...
Actually, it's 12.15 AM, gue off aja deh, mesti bangun pagi, mau sepedahan pagi, mau ke bengkel juga, jd mesti sleep well... Gue kalo ngomongin kangen, Engkau tahu bena ya Alloh, kangennya ga terbendung, smpe mamah juga td nanyain kabarnya pas di Bandara, dan saat2 itu lah gue inget dia, n butuh dia itk bs memudahkan urusan di bandara -->> it doesn't mean, I miss him cuz I need him for my stuff.. It's a big no!!! I really miss him badly, syg bgt ya gue cewe, n even gue super duper confident, ya gue ttp punya naluri cewe lah yah, gue ga bs secuek biasanya, gengsi gue gede bgt... dan parahnya dia jg orgnya gengsian, jd emg bnr2 ga kloppp ---___---, heuhuhu.....
Okay then, gud nite, folks! Gue udahan dulu, curcolnya kt lanjut besok,,, Ciaooo! ^_^
